Yeah I've definitely shook off some illusions but I wouldn't of minded to wake up earlier. Before high school I was blissfully ignorant and like you once anxiety started playing a roll in my life I didn't interact with people anymore. Won't go into the specifics of that right now but things eventually started smoothening out, started dating a chick and ultimately her and my introduction into philosophy and zen made me wake up and calm down.
I did recently start smoking marijuana again, after quitting for 3 years. Part of my anxiety was from smoke in general and I just couldn't smoke anymore but yeah, I'm back to smoking. I drink occasionally, but really only at parties or when I'm with a tight group of friends relaxing. I also am interested in psychedelic drugs and have done a couple but already know I'll only be doing a couple of them a handful of times throughout my life. It's not for everyone for sure and is a serious thing that should be researched and whatnot, but I don't see what I do negatively effecting me or holding me back.
Also, I looked at that Uni's website you linked, looks pretty cool man. How long have you known you want to pursue web design and to go there?
I don't know dude, honestly, drugs are bad lol. Altering the chemicals in your brain like that just cannot be good for your brain. It's really just logical. I mean, especially at our age. Our frontal lobe is exploding, and if it's not already exploding for you it should start soon.
I started wanting to be a web designer/developer since I was 12, then when I was 13 I wanted to be a guitarist in the world's greatest band etc etc etc etc. But yeah, I mean, I've always fucking loved doing it. It's so fun for me. So, I guess you could say I knew since I was 12 but wasn't definite until now. I love feeling definite about shit . Well, most shit...