Life bitchslaped me again today, two friends broke their word and it wrecked my whole day. Oh my, this was a hell of a week for me, waking up in a good mood but having the worst days. It helped me realise what entuziasm an optimism can do to a man. I'm so sick of this time of life ( late adolescence ) when any trouble is like the end of the world. Conclusion: I will avoid entuziasm and will always expect worse, because I'm tired of disapointements and it's better that way.
Loneliness these days ( or maybe so far the entire life ) is demoralising me, throwing me in the abyss with toughts of a sad and lonely death.
Seing all the people happy and in good mood everyday increases the sadness.
I'm fully aware of that whole "this is life, it'll all pass, good times will come" stuff but I just see them far away, when I'm happy I'm happy when I'm sad I'm sad, that's it.
I'm sorry for the corny lines, I have a manner to do this, also I could care less if anybody reads what I just wrote, because I know who reads (if) gives a c**p... I'm just applying writing therapy therefore I'm a boredom spreader.
Notice the egocentrism in my post, almost each sentence starts with "I".