Look, 7.62mm, I don't mean to be rude, and I understand you have panic attacks, but theres people out there that are much worse than you. I'm afraid to admit it, but I have depression, severe social anxiety, and mood instability. Now what your going through is completely normal, but people like me, it's just not the same... I may act normal, but if one thing triggers me I literally go into a panic attack, I can't talk, type, do anything! I am on medicine to help me, and I see a therapist.
To get rid of butterflies? To me, all I do is this, it's kind of strange actually... I'm going into High School and I'm a NERVOUS WRECK right now. When people say "high school is going to suck", I feel like I HAVE to prove them wrong. This is a strange concept, but it helps. Has anyone said your gonna fuck up in front of people? Prove them wrong.
Here's one problem for an example that I can't get over. I was reading a book in class and I freaked out for no apparent reason. Everyone looked at me, I said "I CAN'T SEE", because I didn't know what the fuck to do. This was in a EIGHT STUDENT SPED CLASS! I'm now going into a 20 student "normal class". When you get these panic attacks, imagine what other people go through.
I shouldn't say this, but no ones here to stop me - my uncle is DISABLED for social anxiety, and I can only hope that I don't have his gene. Here's the other part, my grandfather has it as well except not as worse.
Look, if you want to talk to me, send me a PM and we can talk on messenger or something. I just needed to type this, and for anyone that thinks I'm trying to get attention over this, seriously, just don't even say anything.