The whole reason for me being how I am socially is because of psychological and emotional bullying from the head teacher at my first school, then I left that school with serious anger problems, which led to me throwing a brick at someone on my first day at my new school, nearly breaking someone's leg, when they threw a ball at me, then things went kind of ok there, until I went to secondary school, there the teachers thought that I should be treated like everyone else, that means if I react to anything, I get excluded, after 10 times of being excluded, a lot of bullying and torture, I left to go to a school where they have units that specialise in my conditions, but after all that, people made friends with me on my first day, and I tried to go along with it all, but it got really fucked up, so I just completely avoided it and kept myself alone all the time, then after a 7 week break of being alone at home with no friends at all, I get into my 3rd year at secondary school, I go into school, and every time I get to being in a social situation, I feel lots of guilt and I can't speak properly, I look at the floor and twitch. After almost a year of everything being quite normal with people who understand me more, I've gotten a lot better and look at people more and speak more, and I've made proper friends and stuff, so I guess it'll all be perfect in a few years, but I still feel really uncomfortable, and probably always will.